Ok, I'd like to start this off by saying that my wife has been the greatest lady during the pregnancy. Even now at 39 weeks, she is considerate of me telling her that I need to work overtime, and that I have responsibilities with things. I adore how smart, loyal, affectionate and understanding she is. I love her so much.

That being said, I am at the finish mark of this pregnancy starting to think to myself "Ok, what did I miss." Everything we have been preparing for and doing is coming to the point where it's time to put it into action and I feel like I don't know anything at all. We have so much to do to prepare for our child, but that's going to be an ongoing task, I think. I am VERY excited to meet my son and spend the rest of his life helping him grow. I don't think I've ever been so excited about something before, aside from being able to wake up next to Mel.

I know I can speak for both of us when I say we are both ready for him to come. Mel is starting to feel the pains of having the baby weight in her tummy, and it is harder for her to move. I get really sad hearing what she is going through, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I hope it's worth it to her.

Everyone is starting to tell me "are you ready to be a daddy? Getting kinda close." It seems too casual and so near, but it still feels like ages away. I am definitely ready to see my son. I think I've been waiting for this day for my whole life, but I don't realize it. Everything I've ever experienced is something I can teach him, or re-experience with him. It's like the world is born again in my eyes. I am thrilled beyond words. I don't know if I'm going to cry when he's born, but I'm definitely going to be an emotional train wreck. Hopefully this is the last post I make on this page without my son in my arms :)

Been fun guys!

The baby shower is almost here! Everything feels rushed right now, but at the same time it feels like everything is taking forever. I think Melody is starting to feel the pain of having Archer in her now. She seems like she is always ache-y and tired. We went to the hospital a couple weeks ago because she was light headed and her Doc thought she might have some complications. We ended up staying overnight, which was the most horrible night of my life, so far. The whole night they were telling me how the baby and my wife could die and all that fun stuff. I swear.  

At this point, I am ready to meet my son and get my wife back to normal. I don't think I will mind being up late at night, or having to deal with the little things that Archer is going to do. There are these layers of warnings that people give you when you are having a baby, on top of the cuteness. Like, "Oh you two are so cute, get ready for a good ride!" Stuff like that. I'm ready :) I think Mel is too.  

We definitely want to get Archer out. It has been exciting and fun with Mel being pregnant, especially with how nice everyone has been to us. Archer is going to be our son and I am excited for that the most. When I feel like there is a lot of pressure on me, or things are getting too hard, I think about him and what he will be like. I wonder what he is going to want to do with his life, or how smart he will be. Even if he is a doofus I'll still love him to death.

Crazy feelings... Anyway, till next time :)

Lately I've been having weird protector dreams about Archer and Mel. I think it may have been that we cleaned the whole house and had been inhaling cleaning products all day, but either way I am definitely ready for Archer :D  The baby room is completely clean and we will be painting within a few weeks here.  We just need a crib and we're set, except for pretty much everything else haha.  We are going to be going to the classes soon hopefully.  We did take the tour of the hospital and it seemed pretty nice.  Hopefully we get an ocean view *crosses fingers*.  We got to see a cool 3d/4d view of Archer this past weekend, which was totally rad.  I was kind of upset at the quality of the pics though, but hopefully we'll get another one soon :)

I was just listening for Archer's heart beat and he kicked me in the head!  He is so grounded when he is born.

Doesn't exist. Melody and I have been through a lot of stuff already because of the holiday season coming up. We were suppose to visit her grandparents in Texas and we couldn't make it, which really made Melody upset. I feel really bad with how stressed she is getting over everything.

Sometimes I feel like Archer is even at risk. Most people kind of write the way Melody feels or what Melody says off because they underestimate her. It drives me nuts to see people treat her like that, and I feel really bad if I catch myself doing that to her. She tries so hard to make things right with everyone and has such an influence on people's lives, and there isn't an ounce of appreciation most of the time. I am about ready to cut her off from existence before Archer is born, because I want her and my son to be OK and to be healthy, but I don't know if I can do that.

She loves to be a part of people's lives. A few months ago she was very upset because she felt like she didn't have anyone to talk to, and I told her she had more friends than anyone I know.  I know this page is about Archer, and right now Archer is Melody because they share the same body.  What I've learned since my last post is that Mama is definitely number one, and I will support her in any way I can.

Has anyone ever actually used the new baby room when their baby is born? I'm looking at the room we're going to use for Archer for the first months of his life, and wondering how long it will take to get done.

I made a lot of progress on it the past couple of weeks, but there is still just random junk sitting in there. It almost feels like I need to just put that junk in another room and tell myself to deal with it. We have so much stuff in this small apartment, and I thought we were fine. Sometimes I want to buy a storage space, but then it just becomes junk sitting in a room that I'm paying for. Oh well.

The exciting news is that I've felt archer move more :D Melody says she saw him move and that's pretty cool. Every week seems like it's getting longer and longer because I'm waiting for the best present ever. Everything also feels like it is falling apart though. Our car just took a dump and we probably have to make a bunch of repair bills. Work is kind of stressful and I feel like my performance is suffering because of everything that is going on. 

Melody got really upset today and asked if I thought we were ready to have this baby. I know it was because she is just feeling a bunch of frustration from her mood swings and all that fun stuff, but I thought about it. I think we are as ready as we possibly can be, and more important we want the baby. No one is ever ready for their first baby right? I feel like we are trying our best, but I really just want to see my son.  It's like waiting for someone to come into a train station and you've been waiting on for hours... except I've been waiting for months.

22 weeks down, 18 to go! :)

I've been feeling kind unsure about what was going to happen and how it was going to happen lately.  I wasn't sure if I was ready, and I didn't know if I could support Mel the way she needed to be supported.  Well, I felt the baby move for the first time yesterday...  That opened my eyes a little.  I understand now when people say that no one is ever ready, but I think I'll take my chances.  I cannot wait to see my son for the first time, and I love my family very much :)

There are so many things that I feel like I haven't done enough with.  Do I take classes for expecting fathers?  What about a savings account for Archer's college?  Am I going to be able to afford food?  So many questions are coming up in my head, I almost feel like I am freaking Mel out.  I am on the edge right now with everything it feels like.  There's just so many unanswered questions and so many possibilities.  I hope I'll be a good dad.

Hurray :D  I got the family name out of the way.  Melody said we're going to have two boys and one girl.  I was just thinking about how cool it's going to be to have a boy.  I am so use to having girls around in my life.  I get to get themed lunch boxes and cool costumes instead of girlie costumes and all that fun stuff!!  I am trying not to get too excited because there's always the chance that the people were wrong, but I am still very excited :)  The colors on the site are a little cooler now and we're not looking generic anymore.  Very exciting stuff!

Lately, it feels like Mel and I are getting tired easier, and more often.  We are both so excited about having our baby coming that it's draining sometimes.  I have met people who waited a long time before their children were born, and they all agree that they felt it made the moment that much more special.   I have been waiting to have a child with Mel since I met her.  Everyone has seen us go through our problems and our good times, and I've always loved her with everything I have.  To finally be able to have our first child together and to know that there are more coming is just beyond explanation, but why does it have to be 9 months?!  I am very anxious to have our baby, and to see Mel's progress.  Everyday I want to see the baby kicking, or to see it run around like Connor is doing now.  I am very ready to be a daddy, people, and it needs to happen like yesterday :)  Anyway, my update for now is too much excitement.  I'll try to post more often, I get caught up in everything ya know?  *bnnnn* ciaooo